{"id":314,"date":"2023-10-06T00:57:19","date_gmt":"2023-10-06T00:57:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/217.142.249.124\/?p=314"},"modified":"2023-10-06T00:57:19","modified_gmt":"2023-10-06T00:57:19","slug":"%e6%83%85%e7%bb%aa%e5%a4%b1%e6%8e%a7%ef%bc%8c%e5%87%ba%e8%b5%b0%e5%bd%92%e6%9d%a5","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/2023\/10\/06\/%e6%83%85%e7%bb%aa%e5%a4%b1%e6%8e%a7%ef%bc%8c%e5%87%ba%e8%b5%b0%e5%bd%92%e6%9d%a5\/","title":{"rendered":"Emotionally out of control, leaving and returning"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">After returning from the hospital with my child, my emotions were almost completely out of control. Thinking of my huge pressure, my hard life, and the fact that I didn&#8217;t have a minute to relax during the 8-day National Day holiday, I completely collapsed. In the afternoon, I drove out in this collapsed mood, heading west, driving aimlessly. I cried all the way, cursing life, cursing this damn fate, and cursing this unfair God. After driving for 2 hours, my mood calmed down a little, and I drove back slowly. After all, this terrible life has to continue. No matter how painful it is, I can only rely on myself, strong, lonely and helpless. I returned home, ordered a barbecue, and drank a few glasses of wine. Nothing has changed. Life is still in ruins, and tomorrow is still a blank. I am still fighting alone. Empty and helpless. The only difference is that this trip is not free. Afterwards, I received two tickets, one for speeding and one for driving in the emergency lane.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>After returning from the hospital with my child, my emotions were almost completely out of control. Thinking of my huge pressure, my hard life, and&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-314","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-my-diary"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/314","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=314"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/314\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=314"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=314"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.84211314.xyz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=314"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}